There’s no good way to segue out of my last post, so I just wanted to give a quick update on how things have been going since then. After this it’ll be back to my usual weird and fun postings, hopefully 🙂
First of all – I just want to say thank you SO MUCH to everyone who reached out to me regarding my last post. Honestly, I was terrified to post it and I was waffling about whether I should put it up at all. The amount of amazingly kind and thoughtful messages I have received has made me feel so overwhelmingly loved and fulfilled. I had a range of people sending me messages, from old friends who I haven’t spoken to since high school to close current friends who I had no idea are going through struggles similar to my own. It was so nice to get support from friends, strangers, internet people I’ve known for years and some I’ve never talked to before. I truly appreciate every message that I got and just wanted to say thank you. I am so glad I’m not alone in this crazy journey.
Since my last post I’m excited to say I’ve made progress in completing some of the goals I had set for myself to be successful. First of all, I went to therapy!! I had my appointment and I am so happy to say that I really clicked with the therapist and I’ve already set my next appointment. I was SO nervous to go in, to the point that my voice was shaking for the first part of it. But as I calmed down I found it really easy to just open up and talk about everything and get the ball rolling. She gave me some great exercises to practice and also some referrals for other resources…I don’t want to get excited too quickly or anything but I feel really, really good about it. I am very hopeful that it’s going to help me and I’m looking forward to the next appointment.
Next, school starts for me next week!!! Aaaaah!!! And honestly I never thought I would say this but I am EXCITED to start…? I’m signed up for two classes, I have my books, and I’m really looking forward to getting started. I think my excitement rather than fear in this case is a good indicator that I am in a much better headspace than last time I was in school, and again – I am very hopeful.
And in an update that I didn’t see coming, I actually had a good friend offer to go to dance class with me this fall so that might even be happening too! I’m so excited to try and get back into it as a creative outlet as well as a new hobby to keep me active and distracted from negative thoughts. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still scared and we haven’t signed up for classes yet – but hopefully it’s a step in the right direction!
That’s all from me for right now. Again – seriously thank you so much to everyone for all your nice words, they mean more to me than I could even tell you. If people are interested in updates like this I’ll continue to post them, but don’t worry – this isn’t going to turn into a blog only about mental health or anything 😉 To finish up, here’s a few things that have made me happy recently:
I got my hair done and I love how it turned out!
My new passport arrived in the mail and I’m ready to jet set wherever I want!
My friend had a murder mystery-themed birthday party and we all dressed up and it was SO much fun:
And I took this super cute photo of Teddy:
Thank you for reading as always! Until next time,